Control Chapter 10

Chapter 10: Big Girl's Don't Cry

 

BPOV

"Charlie?"

"Get up Bella! You have a ton explaining to do. First and foremost, why are you still here? Why didn't you leave with Edward? Your husband," he all but yelled.

I let out a huge breath. "Why are you asking me about Edward? And he is not my husband."

"Well, he came here to take you back. I just expected that you would've left with him and stopped all this divorce nonsense and be the wife you're supposed to be."

"Nonsense? He cheated on me, a lot. And we are divorced"

"He slipped; it happens. You need to get past it. I can't believe he allowed things to get this far. He should have had a better handle on you," he said in exasperation.

"You have got to be kidding me! And he did more than just slip. I'm not the look-the-other-way kinda girl, I must get that from Mom," I said frustrated.

"Don't talk to me that way, young lady. Your mother had it good. She just didn't understand her place, just like you don't understand yours. Bella, when you took your vows, you agreed to obey. That means you became his, to do with what he pleased."

"What the hell is that supposed to mean?" I was near yelling.

"You are a Swan, damn it, and you are to stand by your man no matter what. Do you hear me? I raised you two better than what you have become. You're divorced. You have been seen in town whoring around with the help. According to the staff, you didn't sleep at home once over the weekend. I hope you had your fun, because this ends tonight. You will end whatever it is with Jasper, and you will fix your marriage. Do you understand me young lady?"

I opened my mouth to talk, but nothing came out. I need to keep my anger in check.

"Look around this office. Look at all the ribbons and the trophies you have won, they are all because of me. Before you could walk I had you on a horse. I made you the woman you are today. Don't disrespect me after everything I have done for you," he said in a smug, stern voice. He turned around and looked me in the eyes. "And you better apologize to Edward for Rose assaulting him. She was completely out of line. I swear Emmett needs to put a leash on her. Believe me, I will be having a talk with Emmett later about controlling his wife."

"I can't believe you just said that about Rose," I said, raising my voice. "I will not apologize to Edward. He deserved everything Rose did and more. And I'm never going back to him. I wish you two would just accept it and stop conspiring against me. I fail to see how divorcing my cheating husband was disrespecting you?" I was screaming now.

"You brought scandal to our family and the Cullen's. We need to deal with these kinds of things behind closed doors, without all the town gossip," he snipped.

"By behind closed doors, you mean ignore it. I won't do that."

"You have turned out to be a complete disappointment and a disgrace to this family. You need to get your head out of your ass Bella, and do what is right for your family. I trust you will fix everything, and this is not a request. Remember whose house you live in," he said as he turned around and left my office slamming the door.

Fuck, who does he think he is? I feel like my life is falling apart around me. What was I going to do? I was not going back to Edward, but this situation is out of control. Then there is Jasper. What am I going to do about Jasper? He has been through so much already. He deserves better.

I walked over to my bar and poured myself some Jack. I took a sip. Good old trusty Jack, always there for me. I wanted to scream and throw things. I was so pissed off. All I know for sure is that I refuse to be one of those women that looks the other way. I was proud of Renee when she left Charlie. Emmett and I stayed with Charlie mainly because of the stables and mom needed a chance to get her life together. I knocked back my second glass of Jack and took a deep breath as I looked around my office. I needed to get out of here, I felt like my office walls were closing in on me.

~*~

After walking around aimlessly, I found myself in front of Jasper's. Before, I could knock the door swung open.

"Bella?"

"Can I come in?"

"Of course, darlin'," he said, as he stepped aside. I walked in and he shut the door. "What's wrong? You look like you have been through a war?"

I looked into his eyes and my insides melted. I closed the distance between us and grabbed the back of his head and our lips met. Our tongues battled each other, this kiss was pure lust.

"Jasper, fuck me please," I moaned into his mouth. "I need you," I said, as I pulled away and started shedding my clothes. I stood there and watched his eyes take in my naked body.

"God, Bella," he moaned, as he picked me up cave man style and ran to his bedroom. He tossed me on the bed and crawled on it and up my body. His eyes focused on my very wet center. I swear he growled. I felt his tongue slide through my folds.

"Ahhhhhh, Jasper."

"I love the way you taste, darlin'."

His tongue was amazing; he slid two fingers into me and his tongue licked and flicked my clit. The assault of his fingers and tongue brought me quickly to an amazing and intense orgasm.

He kissed his way up my body, stopping to lick and suck my nipples. I squirmed under him, it felt so good.

"Jasper, I need you to fuck me,"

"Turn over then."

I turned over on my knees and elbows. I felt the tip of his cock at my entrance and in one very quick thrust he was deep in me. He stilled for a moment.

"I love the way you feel wrapped around my cock," he said as he slowly pulled himself almost all the way out and then slammed into me over and over. I could feel my orgasm start to build. The harder he pounded into me the more I needed.

"Ohhhhhhh...myyyy...," I moaned.

I felt his finger on my clit, and that was all I needed, my body started to shake as my orgasm took over.

"Bella," he groaned as he quickly found his release.

He collapsed on the bed next to me. We were both panting and trying to catch our breath.

"So, does this mean we're not going to play Bible mini golf tonight, darlin'?" he asked as he pulled me toward him.

I laughed. "Yea, I don't think so," I responded, as I melted in his arms. I wanted to remember this feeling, the feeling of being safe, secure and loved.

"Are you hungry?"

"Yes."

"Let's get you fed. Hang on; I'll get you something to wear. He got up and I watched his amazing naked body walk to the closet. He pulled on some sweatpants and then handed me a t-shirt.

After we ate and had a few drinks, we found ourselves in bed again. Round two was gentle and loving. I was so happy to have this perfect night with him, knowing what I had to do.

As I lay there wrapped in his arms, it broke my heart that I was going to hurt him, but I had to. My life was too crazy, and he has been through so much already. I couldn't drag him into this. You know the saying, If you love them, let them go. I was positive I was in love with him. I just didn't deserve him.

I took a deep breath and fought back the tears. I had to do this for him. No matter how much pain it would cause me, I needed him to be happy, and right now I couldn't make him happy.

"What are you thinking darlin'?"

I pulled away from him, got up, and sat at the edge of the bed. My body started to shake, so I took a deep breath and fought the tears. I got up and frantically looked around for my clothes.

"Bella? What's wrong? Talk to me."

I started to dress. It was now or never. God, please give me the strength to do this.

"Jasper," I whispered. "I can't do this anymore. I can't be with you. You," I took another deep breath to steady myself. "You need to leave, it's for the best."

"Bella?" he said, his tone laced with shock.

As I finished dressing my eyes met his, I could see the heartbreak and I felt my heart shatter.

"Does this have to do with your dad?"

"Please, please, don't fight me on this, just go," I said and then turned and ran out of the house.

I walked up to the main house, I felt like my heart had just been ripped from my chest. The pain was overwhelming. I didn't even see Rose on the porch. She ran to me and put her arms around me.

"Oh, Bella, you didn't do what I think you did."

I nodded my head yes and cried as my heart broke. I could feel myself falling into the abyss and I welcomed the darkness.

 

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