Control Chapter 13

Chapter 13: Going Under

 

Rose's POV

I can't take much more of this. Emmett and Charlie are at each other's throat, and I swear Emmett's going to kill him. Emmett has talked to Jasper a few times and from the sound of it, he's doing no better than Bella is. I could strangle Charlie with my bare hands, and as for Edward, I wish I would've done more than just break his nose. Who does he think he is? He acts like he owns her. What is this 1910?

My focus right now is Bella. My heart is completely broken for her and I'm at a loss on how to help her. Over the last few days, I've checked on her and brought her food. She's barely eaten any of it, just some soup and crackers. However, I've noticed she has had a few drinks. So, I did the only thing I could think of, I just kept bringing her food in hope that she would finally eat something.

BPOV

I woke up to the sound of shouting. I blinked and looked around. I had no idea what day it was and I tried to focus on the clock to at least find out the time. It's ten o'clock in the morning, but what day is it?

My head was pounding...the yelling...who is yelling? I sat up in bed and tried to focus. I heard my name and began to recognize the voices. It's Charlie and Emmett and they are screaming at each other. I strained to hear more. Are they fighting about me? Why would they fight about me? I got up and moved closer to the window.

"I won't let you near her. You've done enough."

"Emmett, get out of my way! She's acting childish!"

"You've done enough damage to her. You and your 'insisting she gets back with Edward.' Damn it, she deserves to be happy."

"She has a job to do. These stables won't run themselves and I'm already down a horse trainer."

"Whose fault is that? If you would just let her live her life, we wouldn't have these problems."

"I don't have time for this Emmett. By the time I get back tomorrow she had better be out of her room and doing her job."

I shook my head. I didn't want to hear anymore. I walked to the bathroom and looked in the mirror and what I saw shocked me. I looked like hell. I turned the shower on, stripped down and closed my eyes as I let the hot water hit my body and my aching muscles. My mind was spinning. How long have I been like this? What day is it? I can't take the pain; I need a drink. I finished my shower, wrapped a towel around my body and walked to my bar. I poured myself a glass of Jack and as I brought it to my lips, I heard my name and spun around.

"Bella, you're up!"

"Hey Rose, what day is it?"

"Friday."

I shot her a look. "Friday? Really?"

"Welcome back," she replied.

"Why are they fighting, Rose?"

"Because Charlie is a complete ass and Emmett won't let him near you."

"Fuck, I need to pull myself together and get dressed." I poured myself another glass, as Rose just stared at me. "What?"

"I brought you some food. Please eat it, especially if you're going to continue to drink."

She sat the tray down and left. I downed my drink as I tried to bury the pain. His name, his smell, his sexy smirk was never far from my thoughts. "Jasper, what have I done?" I whispered as I whipped my glass across the room, the sound of it hitting the wall and shattering was the exact sound my heart was making. I can't do this. I don't want to feel. I grabbed the bottle and brought it to my lips and tipped my head back and swallowed. I placed the bottle down. I wiped the tears from my eyes, and I fell to my knees and cried out, "I'm so sorry, Jasper."

 

Sue's POV

The past few days have been hell. Everyone is at each other's throats. Bella hasn't come out of her room for days. If Emmett could, I swear he would kill Charlie. Their relationship has always been strained. Emmett never forgave his father for breaking his mother's heart; therefore, he hates my very existence. I think Emmett is just beginning to grasp the amount of emotional pain that Charlie's way of thinking has affected Bella over the years.

I truly never fit into this family. Well, Rose has always been nice, but Bella avoids me at all costs and Emmett just could care less. I feel I have no place here, besides the office work I do for the stables. What Charlie is doing to Bella is so wrong. I will never understand his need to keep Edward and Bella together. Edward is a complete bastard, and Bella deserves to be happy.

As for me, I'm not as stupid as they think. I know he cheats on me. Really, what can I do? I was his mistress, so it's the age old saying, what goes around comes around, right? I can't wait to see the day when my dear husband gets his.

BPOV

I finally pulled myself together after having another drink and getting dressed. I made my way downstairs hoping not to be noticed by anyone. I made it to the entryway and I heard my name.

"Bella."

Damn it, not Sue of all people. "Sue." I replied. She started to walk toward me.

"I'm so happy to see you," she took a deep breath, "out of your room."

"Thanks," I quipped and started to walk towards the door.

"He's gone till tomorrow and Rose and Emmett went out for a bite to eat. Emmett needed to get away and cool down."

I turned to face her, "Why are you telling me this Sue?" I snipped, her very presence aggravated me.

"Sorry, I thought you'd want to know," she said defeated and then started to walk away.

"Wait," I ran my hand through my very messy hair. "Thanks, I didn't mean to seem rude, I'm just...I need to be alone."

"Bella, I know I'm not your favorite person," she looked me in the eyes, and I swore she was going to cry, "but, please don't let anyone tell you how to live your life. You should be the only one with any control in that area."

I went to open my mouth and respond but nothing came out.

 "Just be true to yourself Bella, and everything will work out."

"Thanks." She just nodded and walked away. I turned and walked out the door to head to my office. What Sue said was hitting me hard, and I just didn't have the strength to deal with feelings. I needed a drink.

 I walked into my office and looked around. It felt like forever since I had been here. I went to my bar and poured myself another drink. I would like to thank whoever cleaned my office. I sat down at my desk and noticed my cell phone. I picked it up and turned it on. I scrolled through the missed calls and text. Two calls from Edward. I took a deep breath and downed my drink. Bastard. Ten missed calls from Alice and five texts. I didn't have the strength to listen to them. I would have to call her soon, very soon, or she'll come looking for me.

I closed my eyes to clear my head. Thoughts of Jasper consumed me. I couldn't take much more of this. Damn it! I hated my life. I got up and grabbed the bottle and went to the only place where I had felt any sort of peace.

I approached the door and my heart sank. Could I do this? As much as I wanted to forget, I also needed to hold on. I slowly turned the knob and walked in. Taking a deep breath, I hit the light switch. The memories flooded my mind all at once. I could almost feel him here, his touch, his voice. I walked into the living area and over to the wall. The very place he took me for the first time and showed me pure pleasure. Pleasure I never knew existed. I

placed my back to the wall and slowly slid down it until I hit the floor. I took the top of the bottle off and brought it to my lips. I didn't want to feel anymore. I drank, cried, and then drank some more. Till the darkness called to me, and I answered.

 

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