Chapter 6 – The Way You Love Me
If I could grant you one wish
I’d wish you could see the way you kiss
Ooh, I love watching you baby
When you're driving me crazy
Ooh, I love the way you
Love the way you love me
There's nowhere else I'd rather be
Ooh, to feel the way I feel with your arms around me
I only wish that you could see the way you love me.
~Faith Hill
APOV
"Bella, you need to calm down." I said in a soothing voice. "You know Edward loves you.”
"I know." She takes a deep breath. "But he takes one step forward and two steps back, I can't take it. I swear I will combust Alice, really combust."
"You are going to have to be patient with him but keep pushing him. Remember he may be over 100 years old, but he has never done anything like this before, He’s just scared that's all." I looked at her and patted her leg to try and calm her down.
"He won't hurt me Alice, I believe that completely. Why can't he trust himself?"
"Bella, I think it's more than just hurting you. He grew up in a different era, where men never touched a woman before marriage." I know that's the way Edward feels, but it's so stupid.
"I know, but we are living in my era not his. He has proven he can be physical with me; he just won’t." She almost whispered the last part. Seeing her this way broke my dead heart. I will fix this. All Edward needed was a good push.
Everything went fuzzy and a huge Cheshire cat grin came over my face as I came out of my vision.
"Alice, Alice what's wrong what did you see?" Bella was pleading.
"Bella, you have to trust me, be patient but keep pushing. You will wear him down." I say as I'm tapping my forehead.
"I know, I can trust you and your vision, I've never bet against you Alice." She said smiling back. I patted her leg and said, "It's going to all work out." I turned on the radio, and we enjoyed the rest of the drive home.
~~~ Meanwhile ~~~
EPOV
I just could not believe she wanted to ride back with Alice and not me in the new car I just bought her. I know she was upset with me and Alice did let me see a vision of how things would go if I did not let Bella calm down. So here I am driving back to Forks by myself.
I have been by myself for over 100 years. My existence changed the moment I met Isabella Swan. Her blood sang to me, her mind was closed off to me, I could not stay away. I love everything about her. Mainly her body.
The things I have fantasized about fill me with such desire and shame, all at the same time. How could she think I did not want her? God that's all I think about is the many ways I could have her. Bella is right, what is going to change in twelve days? I was ready to give her everything she wanted. In what seemed like just days ago in the meadow, after the Jacob kiss thing. I cringed just thinking about that dog's lips on her and her kissing him back. If I don't give Bella what she wants, would she leave me? No that won't happen we are soul mates, besides Alice would have seen that, she still sees me changing her. Bella said she was afraid of being a married virgin. I would not do that to her. I guess that brings me back to the question she brought up. What will change in twelve days? Am I ready or is everyone right about taking it one step at a time and getting used to each other. God, I have screwed up in this relationship with Bella so much, I have hurt her to many times already. I must be able to give her this.
I turned off the road on to our drive and parked my car. I no sooner walked into the house, and I was instantly pounced on by Emmett.
"Hey, bro, where's Bella?" He said with a big grin. I could tell by his thought that Jasper had filled him in on our fight.
"She’s with Alice."
"And why would that be, did you piss her off again?"
"Emmett, I'm not in the mood right now to talk to you." Just then Jasper walked in the entryway.
"Edward, you do realize that Alice told me what she saw, and she was hoping we could talk to you." He said in such a matter of tone, that it pissed me off.
"Thanks Jasper, but I'm good." I quipped
"Dude, no you’re not, you need to get your head out of your ass and start making Bella happy." I rolled my eyes; Emmett truly is an idiot.
"Edward, Emmett's right, you need to go forward with Bella, not backwards. You can do this Edward, trust yourself, and trust Bella." He was really trying to help, so I gave in.
"Okay, you two seem to know so much, how do I just give in after so long fighting for self-control?" At this point advice is what I need.
Jasper gestured to the living area, and we all sat down. I ran my hands through my hair and looked up at my brothers and said, "Guys, I'm scared." I took a breath I did not need. "I'm scared of the unknown feelings I'm going to feel when things get heated. I don't know what to expect with her."
"You two have to take this journey together, for this to work." Jasper said
"Dude, talk to her and take it slow but for god's sake go forward." Emmett really loved Bella and wanted us to be happy.
"All right I know. I need to think before they get back. I'm going to my room." And at vampire speed I was gone before they could say anything.
RPOV
I'm in my room doing my nails, listening to Emmett and Jasper give Edward advice. Those two dumb asses know nothing about women vampire or human.
Edward and I never really got along, he was an emotional spoiled son of a bitch, and he saw me as shallow and whinny. We have been "siblings" long enough to know each other really well and he is just being a drama queen
I'm starting to like Bella, god help me she's growing on me. She has no fear for a human. She is marrying a vampire and she is willing to hang out with wolves. Edward needs to get the stick out of his ass and step up, or he will kill her on their wedding night. Someone needs to make him see what a complete emo, infantile dumbass he is being. I guess I'm the only one for the job.
I made my way down the stairs and to his room, before I could knock the door opened.
"Yes, Rose?" He said with an edge to his voice. "What do you want?"
I pushed my way into his room and looked at him. He looked so defeated.
"Edward, I need to talk to you, and I want you to listen to what I'm saying, now sit down and shut up dear brother." I said in a sharp tone. He just looked at me and sat down.
"Rose, I have had a rough day. I don't need this right now." He said running his hands through his hair.
"Well, you’re going to listen, and you need to remove the stick from your ass." he looked at me dumbfounded, I rarely ever spoke to him, so he knew I meant business.
"This situation with Bella, you need to step up to the plate and stop being an ass. The wedding is in twelve days. If you don't start pushing your physical boundaries with her, I can guarantee you will hurt her or worse kill her. I am not talking about bloodlust or biting her Edward. I took a breath I didn't need and continued. "I'm talking about physical strength especially when you're consumed with passion and feeling things you have never felt before"
"Okay Rose, I have had enough. I know all this already." He snapped
"Well dear brother you seem to have all the answers don't you. Then why are you and Bella always fighting lately?" I paused for a moment and continued my rant. "I'll tell you why because you won't touch her or kiss her the way she wants. Who do you think told Bella to masturbate in the shower?"
He gaped at me. "Why?"
"Because I believe you love her and she loves you and you need to progress, get use to each other’s bodies first. Trust Bella if you can't trust yourself." I took a few steps toward him.
"Look you can do this Edward; you have so much more control than give yourself credit for. She is your singer for christ sake, and she is still alive. You need to know what the different touch sensations feel like slowly or they will overwhelm you."
He sat there just looking at me and nodding, I think it was sinking into his emo mind.
"Edward, you and Bella can make this work, but you have to try and be physical with her. Touch her and let her touch you. It's the only way it will work."
I walked to the door leaving him speechless and said, "Think about what I said. I do like Bella, and I want to see you two happy." I walked out the door and went downstairs to find Emmett.
BPOV
We pulled onto the Cullen's driveway; my heart started to beat faster. I knew I had to talk to Edward, I also knew he was not going to make this easy.
I looked at Alice as she parked my new car and said. "Thank you for everything, for being there for me and for being a great friend." I reached over and hugged her.
"Oh Bella, I can't wait till you’re my sister." She hugged me back.
"Now go talk to Edward, and by the way I arranged with Charlie for you to stay the night," I smiled at her, and she took off with Jasper, I didn't even hear him approach us. Sneaky quiet vampires, I just shook my head and walked into the house.
Rose and Emmett where in the entryway getting ready to go somewhere and Rose just wink at me and they left. So that left Edward and I alone in the house. I took a deep breath and mentally psyched myself out. You can do this Swan, go get him. I slowly walk to "our" room and open the door to find
Edward reading. He is so breathtaking I almost how mad, I was at him.
I took a few steps toward him and whispered "Edward, I'm sorry I don't want to fight?"
He got up off the bed and came over to me; he tilted my head up and our eyes met. My head was spinning; this man completely intoxicated me and consumed me. He bent down and kissed me hard, not our usually kiss, it was an urgent kiss. To feel his cold hard lips on mine, I was going to lose it. I wrapped my arms around him to deepen to kiss. I expected him to pull back as usually but he didn't. His kiss became more intense, he parted my lips with his tongue, and he was in my mouth. The taste of his tongue was so overwhelming, I was getting weak in the knees, my heartbeat accelerated. Edward picked me up and laid me in the middle of the bed and crawled up next to me.
"Bella, I love you; you're everything to me never forget that." He whispered.
He didn't give me a chance to say anything as his lips where all over me, kissing my lips, my neck and dear god my ear. At this point I was panting, I was so turned on. I needed something, anything. He parted my lips again and our tongues danced together the most beautiful dance.
"God, Edward, touch me, touch me please." I pleaded.
To my surprise his hands started rubbing my stomach and down to my waist. My mind was so in overdrive I could not think. I moved my hands down to the bottom of his shirt and tugged. He stopped kissing me and just gazed at me. I bit my lip and tugged lightly again asking for permission. He lifted his arms to my surprise, and I pulled his shirt off. I just stared at him, he was perfect. Then I gripped the bottom of my shirt looking into his eyes silently asking if he was okay with this and he nodded and I took off my shirt.
EPOV
There she was on our bed with her shirt off, she had a pink silk bra on and she was… beautiful! We have not spoken but a few words. We didn't need to our body language spoke volumes. She lay back on the bed, and I next to her. She started to kiss my neck from my ear to my jaw. Her hot mouth felt so good on my cold skin. One hand was exploring my chest while the other was wrapped in my hair. She started kissing my chest; her hot little mouth would be the death of me. I flipped her over on her back and she moaned. That was almost my undoing, but I needed to stay focused. My lips aggressively where seeking hers, I have ever kissed her like this before. I slipped my cold tongue into her hot mouth. It was heaven. I slowly let my right hand run over her stomach and up slowly gazing over her bra.
"Oh, Edward", She moaned.
There truly was no sweeter sound than my Bella moaning my name. I slowly put more pressure on her breast as I was rubbing them through her bra. I had to touch her skin; I needed to see her. I slowly broke our intense kiss; Bella open her eyes in shock that I stopped. I just kissed her nose and whispered "Bella, can I take off your bra?" She nodded and I lifted her slightly and undid the clasp in the back and slowly lowered her bra until her beautiful perfect breast where exposed.
"You're perfect love." I said as I looked into her eyes.
"You're the perfect one Edward." She whispered in a husky voice.
She pulled me down to her and I willingly went. When my cold chest hit her warm one, I swear I almost lost it. She felt so perfect. I started kissing her neck softly at first, running my hand over her bare breast for the first time, her breath hitched. She was so soft. I don't know what came over me, but I knew what I wanted to do. I slowly kissed down her neck to her chest. She was moaning underneath me. I came to her right breast started rubbing it and then I licked the nipple. Bella chest rose hard as my name fell from her lips.
I proceeded to do the same to the other one. Touching and tasting Bella, this was amazing. Why I waited so long I have no idea. I was so turned on. My hands and lips moved all over Bella's body exploring it. While her hands and lips were all over my chest in return. I knew I had to pull back because this was going to get out of control fast. I just hoped Bella would understand.
"Bella, we have to stop," was all I could say.
She opened her eyes and smiled at me. "Edward, this is farther than I could have hoped for. I love you and I understand." She kissed me on the cheek.
"I guess we better get dressed, they'll be back soon, and I know they want to watch a movie or something after you eat." I told her as I handed her bra and shirt.
"Well, back to the real world. Would you like to take a drive with me in my new SUV before dinner?"
she asked.
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